Tuesday, January 24, 2012

I'm a big cry baby....

The occasional emotional meltdown, I think, is no big deal. I think it's important to, even as adults, give in to our childish inner self that sometimes whines "why meeee why MEEEE?!" When you've cried your eyes out, you can reassemble yourself back into an adult and take a few steps forward.

One must be careful, however, when one has the occasional emotional meltdown. If it happens around someone else, they can become scared and nervous. But sometimes the meltdown can only happen in the presence of another. As long as that "other" can understand that it's not a reflection of them or what they're doing, then it should be, in theory, okay, if you feel comfortable enough with that person to allow yourself to express that kind of heavy emotional turmoil.

When I'm alone and dealing with the mountains of stress upon my shoulders (single mom-ness, full time student-ness, and employee-ness coupled with my inner demons), I find that sitting on the kitchen floor (and sometimes laying on the kitchen floor, assuming it's not too dirty) and crying, some how grounds me.

You know, when you fall apart like that...when everything seems like you can't handle it, can't juggle it, crying sometimes, I think, is the best thing to do. Just cry it out and whine about how it sucks...it's not going to change anything, but I know for me it helps.

Sometimes when my stress level is high, I work out. Sometimes I'll try to get together with a friend for lunch. But sometimes it's just too much and the tears are the only option. You end up sleeping better at night and waking up feeling refreshed and more in control of the things you have to take on.

At least, that's the way it goes for me.

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