As I begin this process of building faith in myself - increasing my self-esteem, realizing my own high amount of potential, I realize that this starts in a very basic way. The basics of loving yourself.
I touched on this in the previous entry, but now I feel it's important to delve a little deeper because it encompasses more than just the idea of loving oneself. There are many people who think they've got the love figured out and maybe they have got the right kind of love for themselves.
The love I speak of is a multipurpose, multidimensional love.
When I decided that it was of utmost importance to learn to love myself, I wasn't quite sure how to deal with that. Where does one begin after years - decades - of hating oneself? Well, I began with a very simple idea.
My body. I have never, ever liked my body. I've always been overweight and hated it. And no matter what I had done in the past, I never liked it and nothing was ever good enough. After I had my daughter, I gave it a seriously great effort after I had reached my all time big-ness of 265 pounds and couldn't hardly move. I worked hard and lost a lot of that weight. Some of that weight has come back and I'm still unhappy.
I figure this is the perfect place to start. My body is...ME! And if I'm unhappy with my body, how can I really be any good to the rest of myself? So I started working out again, after a long absence of working out and I'm finding that it not only hurts in that really really great way, but it is enlightening. It's so incredibly energizing as well! I feel like when I start to sweat profusely, I'm sweating out negativity that's been simmering inside of me. Okay, maybe that part is a little silly, but hey, I love it! And I love it in a way I have never loved working out before. This time its because it's not just about getting a hot body but it's about loving myself - my temple! I want to make this body work for me in every way you can think - I want to project the happiness that is building within me and I want to be able to move in the ways I want to move. I want my skin to glow and my hair to shine!
As I have begun working out, my self-confidence has grown tremendously as well. I'm a slow runner right now, and I can't get very far, but I'm running further than I had a week ago! And metaphorically speaking, I'm running away from Old Self and running towards New Self. Thats a helpful way to look at it too!
So as I begin to learn to love myself, I will continue with the most basic thing I know how to show myself love - by taking care of my temple. Clean things up, get the junk out. Get things moving again!
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